What am I supposed to do
What am I to do
What am I supposed to do
When it feels like win or lose
Oh and you just don’t want to lose
I step outside, button my shirt
Stumble around and I can’t find my face, again
The sky is heavy upon my head
I sometimes wish I was back in outer space
Cruising around in the dark abyss
Thinking about the ones I’ve loved and the ones I've missed
But that wouldn’t hurt half as bad as hanging here and drinking my thoughts away
‘Cause what’s haunting me, I can’t see
And I’m not one to look too hard at what’s underneath
Taking a stroll down Hunter street
Trying to find a way to defeat my logic
But every corner and every turn
Is one more step I take towards the end
When I arrive at my destination I hope they’ll all be waiting there for me
Why do I have to wait for some old sunny day
Why can’t I get myself underweigh
What am I supposed to do
What am I to do
Oh mama, i don’t want to choose
What am I supposed to do
When it feels like win or lose
Oh all you want to do is refuse
But what's haunting me I can’t see
But I'll accept it all deservingly
After all is said and done
And I wake up to catch the last of the setting sun
maybe then I'd fall asleeep
And realize that’s where I’m supposed to be
But I’m trapped, trapped in my dreams, trapped in my bed
I’m trapped in this life, I know I’ll be trapped when I’m dead
It’s a matter of time before the ship pulls away
It’ll never come back no matter what you pay
So what am I supposed to do
What am I to do
Oh mama, I don’t wanna choose
So what am I supposed to do
When it feels like win or lose
All you want to do is refuse
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